Saturday, March 17, 2007

Snippets

I've written down some bits and pieces that will give a little insight into the different parts of whats been happening in my life.

Now I never meant
To do you wrong
Thats what I came here to say

But if I was wrong
Then Im sorry
I dont let it stand in our way

As my head just aches
When I think of The things
that I shouldnt have done

But, life is for living
We all know
And I dont wanna live it alone
- Coldplay "Life Is For Living"

We have been saved by grace, and i can think of no other response but service in gratitude.
- AG

I shall never be a GPA slave...
- MM rehearsal, friday night

Sometimes I think of Abraham
How one star he saw had been lit for me
He was a stranger in this land
And I am that, no less than he
And on this road to righteousness
Sometimes the climb can be so steep
I may falter in my steps
But never beyond Your reach
- Rich Mullins, "Sometimes by Step"

Last but not least, i would like to mention that "Fresh Faith by Jim Cymbala" is a great book that gives new perspectives on faith. And it corrects some of the wrong notions i have had. I have read 2 books on faith consecutively now this past few months.

Both have renewed my vigour for a Christ led life and to be like a particular king who was a man after God's own heart and who walked in all His ways and obeyed Him.

Monday, February 26, 2007

In the midst of things

Have not written for a looonnnggg time.
Many things have happened the past 30days. I turned 22. Feels like i'm getting old, which i'm not.
Currently have a ton of work to do, but i'm still procrastinating. Need to wake up my idea.

Been thinking quite a bit, and from what has happened i feel that i should learn to control myself. Before i end up hurting many other people. But in the midst of it all, God still reigns supreme and His providence never ceases. His mercy endures forever.

On a side note, Boo is leaving for Australia tonight. The graphic novel destroyer/korean drama addict is flying off at 11? Have a good flight dey.

Time to head back into the midst of things.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Music Matters - Albums to start the year with

For the musically unaware (:

Just a few albums to start the year with.

1. Continuum by John Mayer
- "Slow Dancing In a Burning Room" and "Heart of Life" coupled with the smoother than smooth "Gravity" makes this album a must listen to.
- A heavier sound compared to his earlier albums, a more mature sound.

2. ElizabethTown the OST by Various Artists
- Imagine an album with everything you can think of , from Elton John's early works to the smooth country harmonisations of East MountainSide. A great piece of chill music.
- Watch the movie, then get the soundtrack and then fall in love with Kirsten Dunst... again.

3. Any album by Vienna Teng
- Not a mandarin album.
- Often compared to Corinne May, Vienna has a smoother country feel to her music.
- Listen to "City Hall", a song describing the beauty and romanticism of a couple that is traveling down to get married.
- For the romantics out there.

4. So Much More by Brett Dennen
- An album for the rainy day, or a cool night.
- Acoustic guitar + A sad voice. What more do you need?
- If you like Damien Rice, try this.

5. Philips, Craig and Dean
- An underrated album that deserves more hype
- Has great songs like "Let my words be few", "You are God Alone"

Thanks to Rav and Boot for the introductions to some of the albums. Enjoy the ride.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Frustrations to Address

Why do we sometimes if not most of the time go through a dry spell in our spiritual lives?
Is it something that has happened because of sin?
Why do we stray or feel far from God? Are our prayers reaching Him?

Many of these times are what God actually uses to strengthen our faith and walk with Him. If there were no dry periods in our lives, i would advise us to question our faith on its genuiness.

God leads us to a place of spiritual abundance but oftentimes the journey is marked with difficulty and suffering.
The psalmist writes:

"For you Oh God tested us,
you refined us like silver.
You brought us into prison
and laid burdens on our backs.

You let men ride over our heads,
we went through fire and water
but you brought us to the place of abundance."

Psalm 66:10-12

Successfully walking through diffculty is a necessary part of becoming mature.

Help me to question myself and the lessons that i can learn through the difficult times, and may wisdom and maturity be granted me, Oh Lord.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Expectations... expectations... expectations.

I've come to realise that my expectations of certain people just won't cut it anymore.

For certain people, you expect them to react in a certain way or to do certain things or to change something about them that just isn't right. But somehow the feeling always lingers in the air and people generally don't change.

Hmm, should i stop trying or should i just continue my efforts? It just seems rather pointless when people evidently have their own lives to lead. Its just frustrating because these people may or will just one day leave my life and when they do, i'll probably have very little chance to try to change them or mold them anymore.
Do you know that when you are lost, or if you try very hard to regain what has been gone for so long, it is almost impossible? Someone once told me we only know what we have/had the moment we lose it. And slowly but surely, you are losing more than you will ever know.

I may be holding onto a rope, but the threads are thin and are slowly slipping out of my grasp.
Oh Lord, if it be your will. Use me and make me a blessing, more than i can ever hope for.

Friday, December 22, 2006

Table of Contents

Well, time has passed really quickly.
This past few weeks, i've been through YF camp again, christmas shopping and Musical rehearsals. My feelings are a whirl and sometimes i ask myself if the choices i make are really for my own good or am i just confused.
Will share a quote from CS Lewis now, it really made sense to me as i was doing my morning reading for my qt.

"Give up yourself and you will find your real self. Lose your life and you will save it. Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favourite wishes everyday and death of your whole body in the end : subject with every fibre of your being, and you will find eternal life.

Keep nothing back. Nothing that you have not given away will ever really be yours. Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair,rage,ruin, and decay.

But look for Christ and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in."
- Beyond Personality, C.S. Lewis


Sometimes i will lose understanding of anything that's happening outside of me and within. But i will hold onto you God, I will cling onto You. (Psalm 73:28)

Thursday, December 07, 2006

A ZYF Murder Mystery

Names have been changed to protect identities, any similarities to any person living or dead is purely coincidental. :)

Detective Kenji wondered how he let himself get talked into this? He, of all people, organizing a ZYF reunion. Things had gone haywire from the very start. Reservations were misplaced, the reception room was too small, and the dinner menu was mysteriously changed from grilled salmon to tuna.

The resort conspired against him as well. Guests had longwalks due to the resurfacing of the driveway at the entrance, and the water main had ruptured at 6:00 P.M., temporarily shutting off the water.

Then there was the murder!

It happened at about 7:15 P.M. A high-pitched scream reverberated through the crowded reception hall. Kenji was standing beside the doorway talking to an old girlfriend(who???) when Charmaine burst through a pair of doors.

"Muffin is dead!" she cried. Then she collapsed.

"You take care of Charmaine," Kenji told his old friend. "I'll check on Muffin."

Kenji rushed into the atrium, a flowery showplace with waterfalls and fountains enclosed in a massive glass structure. He followed the stone path until he found Muffin, lying crossways, his head in a bed of geraniums. No question he was dead. A cursory examination revealed that he had been hit in the back of the head. Nearby was a piece of decorative brown sandstone about the size of a volleyball, covered with blood.

Carefully lifting the stone, Kenji inspected then replaced it. He took out a handkerchief, wiped the sand from his hands, then surveyed the surrounding area. Along the path, he noticed small black circles, each circle containing a circular swirl pattern. The circles were approximately an inch-and-a-half in diameter and spaced roughly two feet apart.

"I am shocked," the concierge said, when informed of the death. "A murder at our resort. How can I help, detective?"

"Guests have to use their key cards in order to enter the atrium. Can you get me a list of all the people who entered within the past hour?"

"The atrium was closed until the water main was repaired. It's only been open 15 minutes." The concierge tapped a few keys in his computer and came up with three room numbers, including the victim's.

Nicklaus Yu was immediately on the defensive. "Sure I was in the atrium," he replied. "Why are you picking on me?"

"I'm not picking on you(yeah yeah)," Kenji assured him.

"Everybody picks on me. You remember how it was in JC. Girls laughed because I worked at Elsie's Kitchen and had grease under my fingernails."

"How did Muffin treat you?"

"The same way that jerk treated everybody. Now that he's rich I imagine he's even worse."

"Why were you in the atrium?"

"I felt out of place around all these people in their thousand dollar suits. I wanted to be alone, just me and my Liverpool soccer boots. I was sitting next to the fountain drinking a brew, feeling sorry for myself."

"Did you see or hear anything?"

"No, the splashing water was too loud."

Kenji asked to see the bottom of his boots and Nicklaus obliged. The heels were small, almost square, and held no trace of black residue. The men shook hands and Kenji moved on.

The second room on the list belonged to Joseph Tee, former football star. Kenji saw him at a nearby table and walked over. "How've you been, Joe?" he asked as they shook hands.

"Been fine," Joe answered. "Except for this bum knee. I hurt it at YF Camp, and it gets worse every year. Can't get around at all without this blasted walking cane, and not very far then."

Kenji wiped his hands on his trousers and realized that it probably made him look nervous. "I gotta ask you some questions, Joe. What were you doing in the atrium?"

"What do you mean?"

"You were in there about the time it happened. If I remember correctly, you and Charmaine dated in JC."

"Yeah, until Muffin stepped in. We were going to be married after university. I had that SAF scholarship you know?"

"I know."

"Well, if you'll excuse me, I have to move my vehicle. Seems the management objects to it being parked at the entrance, even though I am disabled."

"One more thing. Can I see the bottom of your cane?"

Joe shrugged and lifted his cane. The straight wooden shaft ended a flat wooden end. No black stain.

"Thanks," Kenji said and watched the ex-athlete limp away.

Finally, he walked over to where Charmaine was resting and gently took her hands.

"Maine, I have to ask you a few questions. Tell me what happened."

She wiped at her eyes. "Muffin and I were arguing about everything lately. It didn't matter what. Tonight we called a truce and went for a stroll in the atrium. That's when he told me. Muffin was going to file for divorce as soon as we returned to Gardens."

"Why? Another woman maybe?(WTC???)"

"He didn't say."

"What did you do?"

"I slapped him and walked away. I was still in the atrium, as far away as I could get. I was crying. And then I heard a noise, like something falling. When I went back, I found him."

"Can I see the bottom of your shoes, Maine? Just routine."

Kenji inspected the round heels. They were about the right size and scuffed, but free of any black marks. He thanked her, then walked over to an empty table to review his notes.

Kenji's old girlfriend(who?) joined him. "It couldn't have been one of our classmates?" It was a statement, but phrased as a question. "One of us a killer?"

Kenji shook his head. "I strongly suspect so. And I think I know who...

Who Killed Muffin? And how did gay boy Kenji know???